Roaring

It is something in Katy Perry's song that just gives me a feeling everything is possible for me. I heard it on the radio on my way to work this morning and it is just replying in my head the whole day. Watch out the world, here I come. :)

Do you have a song that really boosts you?

Do I know my talents, skills and passions?

How well do we really know ourselves? To be honest, my days are full of things I have to do: wake up children, prepare breakfast, take them to school, go to work, take care of afternoon children activities, prepare dinner, help kids with school work, do house work and not to forget feed the cat.

These are the things I have to do, but I do not necessary enjoy all of them. Often I just fall in to the bed in the evening and then I am surprised, why my batteries are flashing red. This is why I decided to accept Scott Dinsmore Blog Challenge. I want to challenge myself, to stop for a second and to start really  listening that little voice in me, my true me, what she would like to do, what her needs and her wants are. Not because I have to, but because I want to.

Day #3 of Scott Dinsmore Blog Challenge is to think about what do people thank me for? The point of this question is to give some thought to the ways I help people with my talents, skills and passions. Another way to look at it is "What do I love helping people with," or "What would I be happy and excited to help others with even if I didn't get paid?

This is what came to my mind:

•  I try to put my best in to the work I am doing (as long as I believe in things I am doing) and try to do my best the first time around. This often positively surprises people. My grandmother thought me to do the things right the first time around or don’t bother doing them at all and I listened.
• Being attentive and considerate, taking time for people, to listen and help.
• For people I love I like preparing surprises, something special, personal, something they do not expect. I love putting smiles to people’s faces, see their eyes shine, making them feel good about themselves.
•  I love to say thanks a lot and I do it with a sincere smile and a good wish for a great day to them. I want people to know, that I do appreciate them, their effort, even for a smallest every day’s things.
•  I love helping people or at least encourage them to progress in what they feel passionate about.
• Communication, specially written one (at least in my native language). If in real situations I am often not sure how to react, what to say, with writing, I can find all right words and can feel them with emotions. 
• I let children’s friends to play around our house for hours and empty our refrigerator. J
• My children thank me for great birthday parties, reading books, for little surprises and for really listening to them.
• Being positive and help others to see positive sides of things.
• Motivate people.
• Speak for those who can not / know not how / dare not to.
• Help by educating.

When I started to think about the things people thank me for, what I like helping people with I thought this will be quite a challenge. Once I started to write pictures started rolling in my head. I actually feel my batteries filled a little just thinking about this. Great challenge, I recommend it.

Thank you Scott challenging me to stop talking and start listening to myself. I feel damn good right now. J

I wish you all a great day. My already is. 

How to create a fail-proof routine?

You know that enthusiasm, when you decide, you will change something in your life to positive? How many times I decided firmly I will start exercise more regularly or that I will stop eating sweets to compensate feeling down. I know that would be good for me, I know I will feel better then, but ... oh yes, that but ...

So I start jogging every two days. I might go three, four times, and then rain comes, or I come too late from work few days in a row, or kids need to be taken to activities, or friends come to stop by. Sounds familiar?  The list could go on and on. The fact is, I first skip one day, then two, three and somewhere in between I forget to go jogging at all. And then I wonder, why I feel down, why I feel as I can not change anything. Why is it so hard to stick to changes, although we know, they are good for us.

When I looked a little in to it, I found a few tricks that might help:

1. I need to BELIEVE in decision to change, or don' do it at all.
2. I need to start SMALL. One thing at a time.
3. I need to do it DAILY. No excuse, because even one excuse is enough for failure.
4. I need to do this at least 21 DAYS in a row scientist say. Then it will become a habit and it will be easier.
5. I need to do it each day at the SAME TIME in THE SAME WAY.
6. I need to do it RIGHT AFTER AN ACTIVITY I DO EACH DAY - make a link.

And maybe, I would add one more. Sometimes, if I tell my decision to somebody that I know will care, that will make me accountable for the decision, support me, might do the trick. You might even go public -  if you like a motivation and additional pressure to not fail.

My first decision will be, to write this blog every day for next 21 days. Did I really said that?! Yes. Why? Firstly, I would like to put everything running around my head to a paper, and get a perspective, self reflection in this way. Secondly, I would like to challenge my written English. I am not a native speaker, but would like to grow in this direction. Maybe some days I will not have so much to tell, but lets see, where this can take me.

Wish you all a lot of successful small steps.

What really makes me angry about the world?

“The most fatal thing a man can do is try to stand alone.” 
- Carson McCullers, The Heart is a Lonely Hunter

I was challenged to write down what makes me angry about the world. What would I change, if I had a magic stick?

Let's see.

If I would have to point out one thing, I apologies in advance not to be more creative, but the answer is so obvious. Maybe too obvious. Maybe we learned to accept it as normal, stopped really questioned it. Became too passive?

As mom, I can't imagine anything more horrible than seeing your child suffering or dying. With all the knowledge and technology we have nowadays, children are still dying because of hunger, diseases that could be cured, war, inequality, hate ... And it is not just little children. Everyone is somebody's child. There is a small percentage of people that has it all, more they could ever use, but for many of them that is not enough. They wont more, for themselves. For what price? People, environment, our future, future of our planet?

I will risk to sound very pathetic and I know, this is very beauty pageant like answer. But you challenged me. If I would have a magic stick, I would make all people full of love to themselves and to others. Maybe in a world like that my children, and my children's children would have a chance to enjoy this beautiful planet we all share and the beauty behind our differences.

Now is all I really have

“Realize deeply that the present moment is all you have. Make the NOW the primary focus of your life.” Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment

Sometimes things happen in life. Things that are a big reminder, how fragile life can be and the only thing certain we have is only NOW.

This morning we went to express our sincere condolences to a coworker, who lost her brother. He was 36, he was to be married this weekend. His friend an experienced pilot offered him a gift, a panoramic flight that would take him to the bachelor party. The pilot, the groom, the best man and a friend got in to the plain and something went terribly wrong. During the take off, the plain crashed and immediately burned in flames. The groom, his best man and the pilot were dead. And if this is not enough, the best men was engaged to be married to bride's sister. Instead of going to the wedding, they all went to the funerals.

There are no words for this. Why? Why? Why? We will never know, never understand, why.

I called my mom today, to tell her, how much I love her. I gave my son and a husband a specially big and long hug. I thought of all the people in my life I love, but, in everyday running here and there, doing things that seem sooooo important, don't really find the time to enjoy their company. Somehow I take them for granted as they will be all there for ever as will I. The sad fact is, if I am not here tomorrow, everyone including my boss will find replacement for me in heartbeat, but my family and friends will not.  I do not know, why this logical realization heat me by surprise.

If now is all I have, what will i do with it? And what will I do, not to forget this in everyday life? All good ideas welcomed.

That's me

Hi,

I live in a small town in even smaller really cute little country in Europe called Slovenia. I always tried to be polite to people, to share, pay attention at school. I graduated, finished muster's degree. I found the love, moved from the capital city to small town, started the family, build a house, got a cat, planned a garden and tried to balance work and family.

I have just turned forty and that tiny little voice in my heart is getting stronger and stronger. Do I dare to risk my perfect little world for passions that are calling me for a long time now? Do I dare to do differently as I was thought all my life? Be safe, don't risk it. Do I really believe in me? Do I?

I am not getting younger every day, I really feel, I need to make some changes in my life. This blog is my first step in this journey, finding real me and let her live, breath and celebrate this life.

I decided to take an advice from Scott Dinsmore:

"When I consider everything I've done in the past decade to learn about myself, build a career and make a difference, nothing has been more powerful than my decision to start a blog and adopt a daily writing, reflection and discovery habit. Nothing else even comes close."

Let's see where this can take me.